zhenyee's BC

into love,
when i met you

20081216

okay, i know my blog rotted.
i just don't know what to blog bout.
feeling super confused and worn out.
someone please save me.

do you know how i feel,everything is bout you.
when i am feeling even worst,i'm not entitled to even shed a single drop of tear

i'll just talk bout band camp(:
summary:
band camp was alot to me and joey.
we joined back the full band and played with them throughout the whole thing.
it was super tiring to stand and play the whole time.
was really dying of muscle aches la!
could not sleep very well too..
at least the food was slightly better then before.
on the last day we were given allowance to eat outside! haha
like newyork..i miss newyork!
my finger became a little swollen)):
and the thing is we could side read 10++ pieces!
it might not be good but we really tried.
it was hard..
tried playing and practicing technical books and practices.
tried akiyama,was only able to play the first few):
but i will try hard!
this band camp i had fun:D
thanks to someone who accompanied me throughout the camp:D
and that mr desouza, like to disturb me. always trying to demoralize me!
grrrrrr.

day after band camp,in the morning majority of band memberswent to mr brando's tan grandma wakes to offer our condolence.
bus ride there chatted with and,and found out certain things..felt better
sat for awhile at the wake..chatted with those at the table.
and left for the band room to collect the boxes and off to devin's place.
did the names there and started playing,hehs!
we play more then we work! siping was super funny on dota!
left to eat dinner and supposedly to buy the prizes.
but did not in the end..
and thanks siping,you helped me alot.

i'm sorry for breaking down like that in front of you,but i could no longer control everything thats in my head.

sat woke up late! got my rest:D
and left house with sis to fareast,bought my watch and a dress(:
then went to meet mum,her boss and cousin for dinner.
very full(:
cousin stayed over and helped me wrap my books for next year.
sunday woke up and met trombone section at 11.
jiayan was super late!!
pei jingwen bought somting from body shop and left to celebrate mich's birthday.
it was super cold and the wind was so strong la!
went to nyjc for their concert,not too bad la(:
dewi is so crazy! my crazy partner(:
desouza disturbed me again! grr
had game's com meeting after concert,haha
damn funny(: sorted out last mins preparetions.

if you wanted him to go with you,just call him yourself. asking her to help will only hurt me more.i will walk away myself,even if i do not know the bloody way.

monday was band pinic:DDD
haha. went there early to fill the water ballons.
had fun filling them,got wet!
after that slacked whaile waiting for band mems to arrive

thanks andy and siping for cheering me up

trmombone secion was lost! hehs!
after eating we played games,fun! i hoped they enjoyed it.
the 'alumni' group was very on! haha.
cleared up,changed and went to sit/lie down to rest
talked,and tried not to think so much
i had fun,i guess i did

on the way home was a blur,i was controling every single emotion in me.
i am glad that you all are happy.and got what you wanted

came home was a slight bit feverish,due to the strong wind and water ballons.
took a rest till today afternoon. hehs
went to popular,thanks for accompanying me(:

zhenyee.
i do not even know what i really want.