one of the bbq picts.(:


on monday,went out wit crs.
we went to T3&IKEA!
hahaha,i don't know why we went there.
for some blogshop stuff...















unglam picts of me. crs is still pretty thou.(:

tues went back school,i knew what my results were gonna be like.
screwed!
DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
i really felt like crying at that moment,it was so helpless
and no one seemed to know or care. oh whatever

wed we had IAP. watched movie.
talked with him to know that people can really be very hurting and selfish to get what they want
laugh,had fun..enough to make we think bout non-results wise.
then had a boring day in class..super nothing to do luh!
assembly was also boring listening to whoever was talking.
streaming sucks..
i'm afraid i cant get into 3/4.
does it mean so much to me?

today,ahahaha!
positions were told.
guess what i dropped tremendouslyD:
class position: (midyear)12 (now)17
dropped by 5! shit!
level position: (midyear)72(: (now)112)):
dropped by 40!! *bangs head**cries*
DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD;
can you ever imagine how i feel now! the world is not always bout you.
so what if you do not care,i do!

why does this always happens to me?!
ME!ME!ME!
when i'm bout to pick myself up.
you have to do this to me.
am i so worthless!?
i may not be the perfect one
nor am i the one with the attention
i may not be the prettier girl
nor am i the one who seems good in everything
but i'm still alive&kicking.
cant you just spare a thought of me!
give me a place in your eye!
i hate you!
now i know why i don't really wish to score well! cause you don't care!

zhenyee
i have been warned many times bout things i really don't wish for it to happen.