zhenyee's BC

into love,
when i met you

20080721

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i am super bad mood now. like please it was not my fault. that halfway through the song that my slide got stuck.. i have nothing more to say.. i noe you are disappointed in me but what can i do..
it's not that i don't want to care..i could not.. that passion in me is GONE! i want to revive it back..i want to.. but things just keep stopping me and making me take a step backwards..
ever since she was gone i have never loved the section as much..i feel like an odd ball where no one in the section likes me..except noraini...
i really hate that part of me that wants to rebel..wants to go against every word that comes out from all of your mouth.
but i refrain myself i don't want to be that bad apple..i really don't..
i don't want to disappoint anyone..so please don't harbour so much hope on me..
i won't be able to reach what ever you set for me cause my heart isn't there.
you ask me to "find it back lah"
but is it that easy i tell you no...
sometimes i just want to be alone..i just cant seem to find the time..
my life my study including band has just been a routine for me..
i want something i decide on my own..i really do..whereby i can come and go as i wish..
you say with band i get more friends but i got less.
maybe just that few true friendship may count a lot but it is not enough to heal the rest.
i hate it i really do but i cant do any thing to it..it's just so dumb..
so dumb..

well thats all i want to say.
it's been hard..
school was fine...i probably have no more hope in anything.

all i want is a place with no one i know except me..

zhenyee
well,thanks for finally talking to me(: it cheered me up.
thank you.